Her absence is like the sky, spread over everything—C.S. Lewis

It’s not your absence I feel,
but your presence, palpable,
still snoring on the sofa
after chemo.

You are not missing
from any moment I breathe.

You exist.

In the painting you bought on a trip to Spain.
The chipped blue mug from your alma mater.
Broadway tickets I found in a drawer.

You are with me.

On the grocery shelf
beside those square orange crackers
you ate by the box.

In the sky,
billowing overhead,
declaring your existence
as someone still loved
on this earth.

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Jacqueline Jules is the author of three chapbooks, Field Trip to the Museum (Finishing Line Press), Stronger Than Cleopatra (ELJ Publications), and Itzhak Perlman's Broken String, winner of the 2016 Helen Kay Chapbook Prize from Evening Street Press. Her poetry has appeared in over 100 publications including The Broome Review, Sow's Ear Poetry Review, Hospital Drive, and Imitation Fruit. Visit www.jacquelinejules.com.